Who am I? This is a question that I've asked myself almost daily. Before having my child I was happy, confident, sociable, goal oriented, and ALWAYS on the go. I never realized having a child would make me question all these traits about myself. Who was this new person? When researching about having a baby you learn, how to change a diaper, awake times, breastfeeding, when to give solids, and how to do a squat like motion, to rock the baby to sleep. What they DON'T tell you is how you change, how your partner changes. You both have new roles and routines in life, no longer just your own. With a baby in the mix.... you both have to learn to fit back together. Grow together in that journey as a family. I'm not going to lie, I got really down. I read tons and tons of books, such a The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman, or Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis and listened to married coupled podcasts like Rise Together. All to grow insight on how to be happy. How to have a fulfilled marriage. To gain confidence in who I am and who I want to be. To be a mom and also have my own identity. I want to live the best life I possibly can every day. One thing I know for certain, if I'm happy, then my husband will be happy, and my son will be happy. I simply must change for my family.
I found motherhood relativity natural. I really feel it was my true calling in life. He's 21 months, a toddler of amazingness. Looks exactly like his father, but has my personality. Hes kind, curious, and loves Thomas The Train. Cho Chooo. He is very independent, very stubborn (like his parents), very determined, and soaking up everything around him. Learning to talk, colors, shapes, numbers, and animals. I'm sooo blessed and fortunate to be able to be a stay home mother with him, while also working part time and owning ScaleAndTailor . ScaleAndTailor Photography. I had a hard time accepting that I was no longer in accounting, I no longer had a solid career, that being a "Mom" was enough. That putting on the Mom Hat 80% of every day was fulfilling enough. And that's exactly I did. Embraced it. Stop worrying about what others would think and be proud to be a Stay at Home Mom (SAHM). I began to say, yes, it is enough. Being a mom IS enough and I'm so lucky to have the opportunity. So, what do I do with this opportunity........Fill. It. With. Colour. Be Creative. I'm not the type of person who likes watching a ton of tv. Ellen, Greys Anatomy and Big Brother are all I really need. Ok, so I do like watching television. I also like to clean. What I'm saying is, is that I can't do either of these things all day. I need to fill my time with meaningful thing's. Things that fulfill me. I had to reach down, and say hey, I love being super creative in any way I can. I love learning. This is what I'll blog about. How I create things with ScaleAndTailor Designs, how I create photography sets for ScaleAndTailor Photography, and how day to day I create things with my son to keep busy, things to learn, and IN DOING SO I'm pouring all my created energy into this, here, the words you are reading. I also DIY the crap out of our home. We bought my childhood house just over a year ago in 2018. Gutted pretty much the whole thing. Doing as much as we can ourselves. Slowly but surely, one room at a time this house gets done. Watch as we transfer this house into our family home. One fireplace, one toy room, one basement at a time. I still have not figured it all out yet. I still don't know what I'm doing. I'm still going to question whether I want to go back into the work force again. If I should pursue this blog even. What I do know is that I'm Happy with myself in this moment. I'm grateful for my husband and how extremely hard he works for our family. My Son, who continues to grow and blow our minds every day. I'm blessed in so many ways, but I'm still a real hot mess mom trying to figure it all out.
Hey if your interested follow along in this blogging journaling journey with me. I'm Kara. Stay at home mom, wife of 3 years, foodie, photographer, Etsy shop owner, and DIY fanatic. Like, follow, and comment to support but most importantly subscribe to our blog!! @ScaleAndTailor DESIGNS @ScaleAndTailorPhotography PHOTOGRAPHY
